What it is like waiting....

You know, it's really hard waiting for our referral.

People ask me if it's like being pregnant. Well, no, when I was pregnant with Austin I was puking everyday, so in that respect it's not like being pregnant. Another thing that is different is that you can't feel the baby moving inside you. I can feel her moving my heart, and I think about Ryleigh often, but there is no tangible movement to connect me to her.

My friend Pam has a baby, Abby, and she is 5 1/2 months old right now. We went to the park today and Abby is doing that adorable first sitting up wobbly movement when they are just learning about upper body strength and balance and it is so endearing. I was wondering if someone is taking the time to help Ryleigh learn to sit up like Pam helps Abby, but I don't think so. I think that Ryleigh is probably spending a lot of time on her back. I think that no matter how old she is when she comes into our arms we will get to still teach her all of those baby things that she didn't get to learn in the orphanage, at least I hope so....

Waiting is really really hard......